Tuesday, January 15, 2013

Getting my Booty in these Boogies

Boogie Short
Lululemon Boogie Short

I want boogie shorts and I would like to think that  boogie shorts want me. You know, all of me; even the side of butt cheek that's bound to hang out the boogie short because there'sclearly not enough  boogie in that short  to cover  me.

I'm getting some Lululemon boogie shorts. Yep, I am.

These shorts are hella short and I know it, but I have a purpose for them...bikram yoga, my friends.  That's why I need ity bitty boogie shorts.

Bikram Yoga, often referred to as hot yoga, is a discipline comprised of a sequence of 26 poses conducted in a room heated over 100 degrees.  It's hot.   Like all I want to wear in a room this hot are boogie shorts and a bra top hot. 

Being in the hot yoga with anything more than a little boogie short just hot and I'm not trying to be any hotter than I have to be.

The bikram studio reminds me of the dance studios that I spent most of my youth and adolecense in.  In these studios I learned to be comfortable in my body and not to judge other people's bodies. 

**Update** I tried on the shorts and they were offensive. Can you say too much boogie in the back!  Whoo Whee! 

Back to my capris and maybe some 3" shorts for yoga. 

Conqurering Fear

I have decided to train for and run the Marie Corps Marathon in October of this year.  I don't take marathon training lightly since it's an 18 week commitment.  Training will start at the end of June. In that good ole' is this Maryland and not Nicaragua summer heat.

 I've wavered with committing to a marathon simply because of the training schedule.  I'll need to run three times during the week and do a long run on the weekends for four months.  Running 26.2 miles doesn't intimidate me because I know that I can do it.  I've trained to run 3, 6, 10, and 13 miles, so mentally I know I can do it.  It's just the 18 week training commitment that makes me second guess my pursuit.  Let me let you in on a little secret; putting forth my best effort consistently long term is not one of my strengths.

On one a scale of 1-10 my long term commitment levels wavers at best a 6 or 7.  I set realistic goals that I know I can achieve, I start them and then I let a silent goal killer called compromise creep in. Over time I develop a strong case of the I don't wannas. As in "I don't feel like it" and "what's the purpose, "  etc. I start choosing preferred activities and I'll let the goal fall by the wayside. 

Fear has a lot to do with the I don't wannas.  I don't want to do things and don't push myself to do them because I'm afraid of what may happen.  For example, I want to sell a few clothing items on ebay, but I'm hesitant to post them because I'm afraid that I may not do it right, that I'll leave something out or that it will be more complicated than I thought it would be and that I'll end up being confused.  So what happens? I look at the pile of clothes I want to list on ebay, never post them, and I never make any money off of them and the cycle continues.  The fear of not doing things correctly and the fear of failing are real in my life.  I don't know where it stems from and at this point it doesn't matter since I just need to confront and conquer the fears so that I can build the confidence necessary to complete the next challenge.  Joyce Meyer has a great mantra of "Do it Afraid."  Just because you're doing it doesn't mean that you're not afraid, it just means that you're going to follow God and do it anyway even though you are afraid.

With that said, I'm registering and training for the Marine Corps Marathon and I'm signing off so that I can list these clothes on ebay.  I'm doing it afraid so that I can conquer my fears.

Anybody interested in size 8 petite pants from LOFT and the Limited?  If so, you can find them on sale on ebay :)  What if we called them scardy pant in honor of me listing them while I was afraid!

Tuesday, January 8, 2013


"Great people talk about ideas; ordinary people talk about things; small-minded people talk about other people."
-- unknown
I believe in being kind, treating people with respect and being honest in my intentions.  I’ll be the first to admit that I don’t get it right all the time, but I try to be the best person I can be.  Until I started dating my husband eleven years ago, gossiping and talking about people is how I thought people engaged in conversation with one another.  If you weren’t talking discussing someone, their life or a choice they made, what would you talk about? From what I can remember my conversations never started off as gossipy, but at some point they always ended up there. I could easily talk about the day, the weather, what I was going to eat for dinner; how I was feeling etc. and ten minutes later I was jumping on the southbound train to Gossip Lane. Seriously, that’s pretty much how it went.   It never occurred to me that what I was doing was gossiping since I never had malicious intentions. 
What finally stopped this cycle was being consistently called out by my husband.  How dare he, right? He didn’t do it all the time, but he did it enough that I started becoming conscience of my conversation. I don’t know why I felt the need to share anybody’s life story (interesting parts only) when I brought them up in conversation and why I felt the need to supplement my stories about people with my opinion. What also helped was Joyce Meyers told me the other day when I was riding down the highway that I don’t have the right to an opinion if I don’t have responsibility for the topic.  Ouch.
Not long after I got married I found out that a family member shared some very private information about me with his friend, my makeup artist, who in turn shared it with her friend, my hair stylist. The hairstylist happened to be a close friend of mine and told me what happened and I was devastated.  I was angry and hurt by the fact that a family member would discuss a painful event in my life and share it with anyone else . I never confronted my cousin on the matter, but I did use that as a lesson gossip and respecting people’s privacy.  I didn’t want people discussing the lowlights of my past, so why would I discuss anyone else’s.  It’s funny how being in the unfavorable position completely changed my perspective. 
Nobody likes a gossip and I’m glad that I’m not one anymore. I finally have something to talk about other than people.  I have ideas and passions that I’m happy to discuss.  I’m making progress.

Sunday, December 30, 2012

My Sweet Boy

I am the mother of a boy.

A wiggly, never-stop-moving, incredibly sweet-with a touch of stubborn, fearless and almost too smart-for his-own good boy.

My boy is happy and he knows it, he favors his left hand while swinging his golf clubs and sleeps best with his pacifier and a warm bottle of milk.

He's my sweet boy.

I prayed for a boy.  I silently begged God for a boy because I knew deep down that I was created to be boy mom.

Girls are good and all, but I wanted a boy.

I like to run, I like to play hard and wrestle, but most of all I love the sweet snuggles little boys give their mamas. 

I have to pray for my boy because boy is he fearless. He creates the cadence and marches hard with quick steps to the beat of his own drum.  Falls, scrapes and busted lips don't faze him cause he's a shake it off and keep it moving kind of boy.  At this point they don't faze me either because I know that's my boy.

I love hard and my sweet boy is not exempt. 

To the moon and back, I tell him, that's how much I love him.  But that doesn't describe my love for him.  I love him to my core.  That big black pit deep within my belly where he was planted as a seed and grew into a little boy...that's where my  love for him comes from.

He's my boy on loan. He was birthed by me, but he belongs to God.

I am good for him and he's good for me.

He's my boy. The boy who made me a boy mom.

He's my sweet boy.

Wednesday, November 28, 2012

About Me...

30 something God lover trying to figure out the life thing while juggling marriage, motherhood, relationships, work and school...whew.  Running, reading and creating keep me sane while choosing joy and being grateful keep me grounded.  I live to share and encourage and I hope that my life impacts the world in a positive way.

I can be messy, I'm silly, I like to daydream and I'm proud to be be perfectly imperfect.  I'm saved by grace and I am redeemed. This is me. 

Sunday, June 10, 2012

2012 Race Calendar

Here's my race calendar for the rest of the year.  Can you believe that I have a race calendar?
June 16th- Baltimore 10 Miler
June 24th- Baltimore Women's Classic 5k
July- no racing...too hot
August 11th- Back on My Feet Twilight Run 15 (maybe)
August 19th- Boordy Vineyard 5k (maybe)
September 15th- Black Girls Run Conference and Race 10k
October 13th- Baltimore Running Festival- 1/2 marathon
November 10th- Suntrust Marathon- 1/2 marathon or 8k  (I want the half scenery and medal)
December 15th- Celctic Soltice 5 miler